ambiguity of being hurt
i think something that got me was that some things hurt Only if i maintain something in my heart
(this is the pain of grafting)
if i become Conservative Steve, well, it doesn't hurt so bad does it. (but i'd really not like to be him).
"how can i justify Being Hurt?" is i think a question that was once in my heart.
(if my suffering is UNJUSTIFIABLE TO EVERYONE, maybe i shouldn't be hurt.)