anger
the idea that my love for my wife is just a farce, that i am playing some "dream dollhouse wife simulator", that my love is not true..
this fills me with such despair i wish to "pray" for "everyone who ever was or will be, all the good people, all the bad people, all my friends here, everyone" (quotes collaged from the land of the lustrous...)...
i don't kill spiders. i used to because i was so scared but they're really mostly harmless (well around here anyways), and i don't like to kill bugs...
i will sometimes if there's like a mosquito or a bug i Really don't want around, i don't moralize about killing bugs, i'm no BETTER for not...
i just don't like to.