bitter satisfaction of self-disgust
oh i'm just The Worst 😆
Such a dissatisfying existence i'm So picky So picky (entitled!)
what makes me entitled to being even repulsive or disgusting to myself, because these still express a wish in them (that i or the world not be this way)
and to indulge in self disgust,
makes it easier doesn't it 🤣
easier than actually seeing myself
you couldn't do taxes if numbers made you retch