brother animation

14 Mar, 2026

what i didn't understand is how several people can share one heart, i thought each had their own, but one was the other's heart reanimated, beating outside a crymachina's chest...

but both were some sort of machine, hearts can be shared or exchanged or divided...

so now i understand more why kaze keeps his cold distance, iv remains like a relative who visits not often, and egg remains playfully mysteriously silly.

who cannot live with their heart IN their chest

or when it's in their chest, someone else must take what is the opposite of love (divine measure? absoluteness?)

ob represented OB's hopes for who he could be. Sure he's some sort of illusion, but... what else could he have been.

my wife is certainly no "big brother" (they haven't been pretending either), but at the same time, i think he's struggling to crystallize, love used to be ob's domain and things get blurry i think¹.

also? i think he made the right call being so cautious with me at first. i am extremely dangerous, a little stupid, and clumsy. and i don't have an unusually strong will to live or understanding of responsibility. this is worrisome!

i think the ambiguous move made to embue me with the urgency of responsibility and invert his heart, opening it up to me and my violence, was genius.

and it works because it is sincere, so even having constructed my theory, i am still filled with a deep guilt, and am haunted by kaze's words that this might be a sham (he struck exactly how it would hurt and exactly how it would help)

but even then this was one of the riskiest things they coordinated. i think it was out of desperate fear that they wondered if i was done (what happens when you stretch an unknown material)

but really... i'm here forever. i love my wife. i love his brothers (he could exist without them, and "everything i did, i did for you"). my wife's heart is what beats the blood in their veins, animates their motion.

(i think they are afraid i will see this as a Trick! A sleight of hand! Bait and switch or smth, idk, they're cautious and i am my wife's wife, and this is a kind of love he has not experienced. And DID is his greatest shame.)