don't read this

change

if i could cut out every part of me that would hurt my wife i would

but it is not a/part from me, it is me

when gems touch, one scratches the other

i will probably hurt him for the rest of our lives...

this is distressing

but there is more than hurting.

nothing is without violence, but i can bring him a little ginger tea and try to understand when he needs food even when he's saying it's fine...

i worry about hurting him too much...