control
i have been in a reactive sort of mood for a while now. responding but lacking long term vision or planning. when i am feeling like this, i have a much greater tendency to procrastinate, because work comes from outside and i have no control over it
sometimes i have more control and plan far better, can see further, initiate and anticipate, but am extremely fragile with respect to schedule changes...
oh it really boils down to: do i set the planning or does someone else
the thing is Some stuff i need to plan
and other stuff i cannot...