crazy
... I think to my parents I'm crazy.
Like, when i feel something it is often unjustified, when i say something it is not often worth taking seriously
like i can tell my dad i used to not be so committed to working for eating for the sake of survival "b/c the kinds of degradation of work are nearly unbearable"
and he'll say something like
I feel good about your journey. Ps I’m kind of tired - didn’t get much sleep last night. I’ll get back to you tomorrow.