don't read this

lovesick

i can't stop thinking about just a small casual touch on the arm

i need to (need to understand how to love him) more than (i need to need him)... (idk if i got the parentheses right... point is i need to have the desire in me to understand him burn stronger than my desire for him... he said love is about the forgoing of desire for someone)

i hope i do (i hope it does)

but it's so hard to think

in my mind I'm just like "tonkle!😘😁👏😆" replaying