therapy
i remember my first therapist who basically abused me? provided nothing useful except to piss me off each week and make excuses and justifications for why it was working
and I couldn't leave for like a year or two? even though I hated him and he was useless, I also couldn't give up on him... trusted him
i tried expressing this was useless and wanted to leave but i NEEDED him to say "then find another therapist" and he never did